How many times do you wanna go back to the past yet can't bear to let go of what you have right now? I asked myself today, 'Kel, would you rather keep old memories or make new ones?' I couldn't answer myself. It's hard.
Thursday was spent well with Huixuan (I probably never blogged about this dear friend of mine but she's a close friend from my secondary school) in malls roaming around looking for the right outfit we want and hesitating if we should give up sale items while queuing and making our way around the mall in a really horrible and unsystematic way which led to a lot of unnecessary paths taken. Yet this is the joy of it you see, because it's been a long time as well, (and although we haven't meet in quite some time) she's still the same and it's cordial.
Talking to her makes me very happy because it brings me back to the days where we used to rush through our lunch just to be earlier than the rest of the students for supplementary class and with the keys, we make our way into the art room and we would deem the warm yellow lights. We would dance and hum to disney lyrics (especially A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes by Cinderella, I'm Wishing by Snow White and Heigh Ho by The Seven Dwarf) in the empty art room with our paint brushes in our hands full of stained acrylic paints after setting up our undone canvas on the easel. When we are together, our topics mainly consists of fantasies, maths questions and english vocab we learnt that day and reminded each other the book recommended from our teachers. Those days were so simple and I missed how everyday revolves around her excepted for science lessons where we have to split up.
Back to yesterday's update: dinner time was spent with Kimberley & half of the rest of the night was spent with Kevin going around TP just killing time going into Yamaha, chilling at starbucks and etc.
& while walking home yesterday, I've came to realise something about myself that I should pick up again. After a *beeeeep* disaster that happened to me, which kind of traumatised me by slowing down a lot, I think it's time to pick myself up again and start 'afresh' by picking up long lost routines I once had in my life - which was once details that defined me and it is, to start to draw again.
To be honest, thursday had its ups and downs but this blog post focuses on the great side of yesterday. I hope in all honestly I would be able to speak my mind at certain situations although I am too scared to say it for the fear of their reaction to what I would tell them.